i had a fucking terrible day today. work blew, leaving sandra blew (i always miss her whenever i'm away from her), school blew, and most of all, finding out my parents aren't coming home tonight as they're in the hospital with my sister due to heart problems, really fucking blows.

it really seems like everyone in my family is physically falling apart besides myself, and i almost feel guilty that i'm healthy.

fuck i'm worried, and fuck this has been a lousy day.